Dream deferred

"What happens to a dream deferred?

Does it dry up
like a raisin in the sun?
Or fester like a sore--
And then run?
Does it stink like rotten meat?
Or crust and sugar over--
like a syrupy sweet?

Maybe it just sags
like a heavy load.

Or does it explode? "

I guess you could say I'm in a bit of a "funk" these days with the realization that the one BIG reason I keep going back to school to collect degrees is because I haven't enough job satisfaction on 99.9% of the jobs I've had in my career to stop. So maybe it makes since why I'm not bothered applying to med school at an age where most people have reached the peak of their careers.

One thing I do know is that all the "challenges" I see on this path to becoming an MD,PhD are nothing compared to my daily struggle to find meaning in my daily work knowing that I'm probably only using 1/3 of my brain and less than 1% of my lab skills. So I literally thank God EVERY day I have my Bioinformatics program and numerous other internet Path resources to keep me mentally and professionally going! Now if I coukd just get the first line of my personal statement done, LOL!!!