Thursday, August 4, 2011
Elephant skin, anyone?
Earlier today, I attended training sponsored by a company that makes instrumentation used in histology/pathology. And when I realize that not only is the timesheet throwing Eggplant from my last job in attendance, but also the uncle Tomasina (code for a Black woman who stabs you in the back) and the old supervisor from the job where I was fired from in 2009 for the first time in a career that goes back to 1986, I KNOW I'm gonna have an interesting day, LOL!!
They say there's 7 degree's of separation? Actually it's more like 3 or 4 in metro DC histology circles, and I came across people who knew people I'd worked with in the past over and over again today. I saw the guy that worked with me when I was Lab Director (and whom I didn't want to hire in the first place) who then quit on the second day, almost immediately after he got a whiff of the Nazi Investigator at this University.I also saw the guy who recommended me for the job where I became lab director whom I met on the job I was fired from. And his was an interesting story. Turns out the company that fired me, fired him too earlier this year and now he's pretty much being blackballed in this area where histology jobs are concerned. But the story doesn't end here. The intuition I had about the woman who grilled me during the interview for my current job, was pretty much right on point and confirmed by a number of different sources at the training today including the guy being blackballed. Lucky me!
All this brings me to Ms.P, a lady I met today who now works at the university where I was Lab director, who said this to me. When God is all up in your life,there's NOTHING the devil can do about it unless you LET him (or them). Now she said this to me because she overheard me talking about my concerns and feelings to Ms. J, a woman I think of as my Histo mentor who was also at today's training. Now I gotta be honest here, seeing the people who went out of their way to try to destroy my career along with seeing the Eggplant, combined with my trepidation about working with the interview killer from my new gig, had me feeling pretty "off" for a good part of the morning. So during the first break, Ms.J told me straight up that I needed to thicken the old skin and not forget who I am, what I'm capable of doing, and what my future holds(and I'm really gonna work on getting back the thick skin I USED to have because I'm gonna need it for med school). So about 5 of us ladies formed what in retrospect should be called a prayer circle because it turns out that ALL of us are dealing with some levels of the same crap on the J.O.B. They have handled it/are handling it with the upmost of peace and grace, and me not so much. But when Ms. P started praying right then and there, I thought I was gonna get my shout on, LOL!!!! She reminded me that grace and peace are already given to us by God, but that we often forget that when we find ourselves dealing with negative situations and people. And that's exactly what the devil wants us to do because it's causes us to loose focus, get off our "game". So no sooner than Ms.P finished quoting scripture than Uncle Tomasina and crew walk by. And all I could feel was the biggest sense of peace, accomplishment, and grace. Then I claimed VICTORY!!!!!
I've had a LOT of time over the past few months to think about who I am, where I am, and where I want to be after 2 years of having the best and worst employment expereinces in my career. And what I realize is that I always have to remind myself that I am a child of the most high God, who has already blessed me in so many ways and brought me through so many things, that I have NO REASON to doubt His power and presence in my life now. But the most important thing I have to remember is that many "battles" in life are NOT mine to fight. I've got to work on knowing when to "fight" and when to let peace be still. And like Ms. P said, I don't need to pray for peace and grace because God's already given me those things, I simply have to walk in the faith that when I need it most, both peace and grace WILL be there. Just as it's always been!
Now I'll leave you with one of my ultimate favorite videos during trying times, so please put your hands together for Mary, Mary's God in Me: